Has it really been a year

I look back and see the last time I posted was almost one year ago. Oh how so much changes in one year. It is funny because really nothing tangible has changed. I still live in the same house with six amazing boys. I still dream of distant farm lands where I crave to be but yet I am different. I experienced my first miscarriage. I know that sounds so sad and believe me it was extremely heartbreaking but it taught me so much about me, my family and most of all my husband. We go through life worrying so much about who the world sees us as but at the end of the day does it really matter. If we can hug our children and be thankful for all we have that should be enough. Yes I will always need a bigger house. This one bathroom, 900 square foot house is not really cutting it for me, but yesterday my three year old said he loved our "huge" house. So we stay here fixing it bit by bit. I added a pot rack and I felt like I won the lottery. Doesn't that sound crazy especially because around where I live adding a second home is more the norm. But now I take pride in the little treasures I am blessed to have. It is funny because over the years living here I have felt so alone. There are so many amazing woman around here but I still fail I am unable to connect. But then I log in and see someone else's life in their blog and I know I am never alone. I have my family and that is all I will ever really need!